HeLLo ILoCoS!!!

One of the lighthouses in Ilocos

With Erwin, pictorial at Fort Ilocandia... Laughing our heads off!


Aspiring Lifeguard! Lolz!!!!


This is what Boyet calls the Golden Hour.. Nice lighting for the pictures.. One of the old churches in Ilocos

Nana - Erwin - Boyet... Thanks to Boyet's tripod, finally, we had a pic with all three of us together!!!

Pagudpod in Ilocos... Nice beach...

Solitary rules!!! =)

This is it!!!! The nicest picture of the batch!!!

I recently discovered how to put these pictures together!!! Im addicted to it!!!

Sometimes you got to run away to see who will run after you...

Sometimes you got to talk quietly to see who's really listening...

Sometimes you got to step up to fight only to see who's standing by you...

Sometimes you got to make a wrong decision only to see who's there to help you fix it...

Sometimes you got to let go of the one you love just to see if they love you enough to come back to you...

Some of my Europe Pictures =)

Moulin Rouge in Paris

On my own in the streets of Austria

Cathedral in Austria

Who could forget the tram going home to Papa's house. I got caught not stamping my strippencart! yikes!!!

At the famous Red Light District. One Helluva Night!!!

Canals in Amsterdam... One of the places where they shot Ocean's Twelve

Notre Dame in Paris... Its always under construction everytime i go there!

Eiffel Tower.. So Romantic and breathtaking!!!

Madam Tussaud's Wax Museum...

One of the pretty sights on the way from Louvre Museum to Notre Dame

Inside Louvre Museum...

Outside Louvre Museum...

Sacred Heart Basilica in Paris

IF ONLY I COULD TURN BACK TIME...

...I should have shouted less and listened more... things would have become more peaceful and easy to deal with..
...I should have not drowned myself with work and spent time with my loved ones more.. time with them is irreplaceable..
...I should have not shopped for things not needed and saved for rainy days.. all my clothes that ive worn only once could buy me a brand new cellphone when i left mine in the bus...
...I should have thought about things first before deciding what to do.. i shouldn't be feeling this way if i had...
...I should have stopped smoking when i got out of the hospital.. now its too hard to quit this F@#!*% habit..
...I should have paid attention to what others were feeling.. and talked to them.. relationships could've gotten stronger...
...I should have not been too judgemental and must have given others a chance to prove themselves.. like what i want others to do to me...
...I should have enjoyed myself and not care about what others were thinking... the hell with them...
...I should have listened to what my mom told me coz mothers always know best.. now i know...
...I should have prayed more and had faith in Him more...
...I should have trusted more and should have put my guard down just a bit.. i would have enjoyed more the feeling being loved..
...I should have eaten my pride for the things really important to me.. now i know pride wouldnt get you anywhere..
...I should have thanked those people who has always been there for me.. let them know that i appreciate them and that when time comes that they'll need me, ill be there...
...I shouldn't have hurt you the way that i did...

HOMILY TO MYSELF

**adapted from a text message sent to me by a friend

There are things i regret...
words i wish had gone unsaid,
starts that had bitter endings,
chances i threw away,
roads i should never have taken,
signs that i didnt see,
hearts i hurt needlessly
and wounds i wish i could mend..

But life gets that much harder.
The past cant be rewritten but it can make me stronger.
I should still be thankful for every change life has thrown me.. f
or every break in my heart,
for every scar...
Some pages were turned,
some bridges were burned but still...
i had lessons learned

Stuff You Don't Learn In School...

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
You'll fight with your best friend.
You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'lleventually lose someone you love.
So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid thatit will never begin.

-from Sherlock's Bulletin Post =)

UnSoLiCiTeD AdViCe To ThE HeArTBroKeN PeePS

By this time, everybody knows that my 3-year relationship with my ex-boyfriend has ended... I've tried moving on already and i know so has he... As always, its hard letting go of people you love especially that they've already almost became a permanent figure in your life.. Christmases, birthdays and graduations dining out with my & his family... First person you call for the good and bad news.. The person you consult about anything & everything.. The first person you see in the morning and the last who you see before you sleep.. The person who you constantly look for to fight with during PMS days... Movie, eating and gimmik partner... Hell, even all of my doctors from different hospitals knows him.. My point it, twas really hard shaking it off.. I can't be bitter naman coz i know somewhere along the way towards this separation, i did a lot of things im not proud of.. Things that i wish ive done differently so that maybe the situation wouldnt have ended this way... I can't be mad naman to the person because he has given me the best three years in my life as to date... I guess "may hangganan din lahat ng tao".. Patience and love could run out especially kung sobra pasaway kasama mo lagi like me... Well, all i could do is to learn from my mistakes and be better on my next relationships... And i thought, if i forever stay hoping and holding on, i'd eventually lose those people who would want to love and take care of me in the future..

Anyways, i wouldn't be this sane right now if it weren't for my friends and unexpected shock absorbers.. And believe it or not, i got strength from constant text messages that really touched me, and i wanna share them with you guys...

(1) FROM ERWIN: "It's okay to cry as hard and as long as you want to,just make sure that when you stop crying,you wont cry for the same reason anymore..." -self explanatory =)

(2) FROM FAYE: "I always thought that love can melt away the pain no matter how painful it is, but i realized that pain could also melt away the love, no matter how great it is..." -sad but sobrang true

(3) FROM FAYE AGAIN: "Anyone can make you smile or cry, but it takes someone really special to make you smile when you already have tears in your eyes..." -this is for all of my friends at work, to those people who always are at Peachy's and my work stations hehe

(4) FROM FAYE STILL: "Someday, someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.." -sobrang sweet!

(5) FROM ALVIN: "When i was little, i fell from a tree but before i did, i managed to hold on to a branch. I was up there for a long time waiting.. The silence, the pain in my arms, the heat, my heartbeat pumping... Then i finally fell. I could not recall exactly what happened after i hit the ground.. All i could remember was the agony of holding on.. and the wonderful feeling of letting go..."

(6) FROM FAYE AGAIN: "A breakup is like a broken mirror.. Its better to leave it broken than hurt yourself trying to fix it.."

(7) FROM JV: "You aren't going to be his first, his last or his only. He loved before and he'll love again. But if he loves you now, what els matters? He's not perfect, you're not either. If he can make you laugh and he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him. He's not going to be thinking of you every moment of the day but he'll give you a part of him that he knows you can break--- his heart. So dont hurt him, dont change him, dont analyz and dont expect more that he can give. Smile when he makes you happy because perfect guys dont exist, but there's only one man who's perfect for you..."