~*~ Wishes ~*~

1.) I wish Philippine Airlines didn’t close their offices in Europe. This way, Papa would still be in a job that he loves doing and have all the benefits especially the free airfare. I remember before, Papa can go back and forth anytime he wishes. So it’s like, he’s working at the other side of the globe but whenever he feels like it, he can go back home even for a weekend. This way, we still get to see him often unlike now, it’s been months since I last saw him and I’m missing him so much!


2.) I wish I have the time, guts and money to start & continue the business that I really love: WEDDING COORDINATION. They said that work would stop feeling like work if you love what you’re doing. I envy those people who since they were kids, they already know what they wanted to do in their life. Unlike me, at first, I wanted to be a grocery cashier, then a TV personality, then a lawyer, then at college, I took up Civil Engineering because I heard the ratio of boys to girls in that course was 10:1. Don’t get me wrong though. I learned to love my field along the way. And I believe, it has been good to me too (well except for the female discrimination every now and then). But what I really want is to be a wedding coordinator. I cannot just explain the euphoria-slash-giddiness-slash-throat constricting feeling that I feel every time I see my brides walk to the altar and every time I see the look on the groom’s face when he first sees his bride. I cannot also explain to you the fulfillment that I feel for every thank you’s of these newlywed couples after each wedding.


3.) I wish people would stop asking me if my wedding for 2008 will push through. I get pressured noh! Alright! Alright! Aside from the fact that it was my long time goal, recently, somebody made “hula” that I’d get married on the age of 28. That is already next year. The problem is that I still do not know to whom. Well, maybe I do, he just doesn’t know it yet. You see, I’m doing my part naman. I called up a Santuario in Forbes to reserve the August 8, 2008 date for my wedding. I was willing to pay the reservation fee, mind you. They asked for the names so naturally I gave mine. They asked my groom to be. See, that was my problem. I told the girl I’m still not sure and if it was possible to give my then boyfriend’s name first and I’ll just change it if ever we don’t end up together. Not possible, she said. Fine. So now, I don’t care. I’m not in a hurry anymore. I realized if I’m going to get married to someone and spend the rest of my life with him then I guess he’d be worth the wait.


4.) I wish my Vitiligo would go away. It’s summer and I’m getting tanned except for that spot in my face. It wasn’t bothering me before but it’s sure hell bothering me now!


5.) I wish I could try living alone, independently. Mama said I could as long as I don’t bring my laundry to her house and ask our maid to wash my clothes for me. As you all know, I have been dependent on other people all my life. I wanna learn to be independent starting with living alone. However, as much as I want to, my financial state prevents me from doing so. If I live alone, I have to start paying rent. I have to have my laundry washed (since I can’t bring it home). I have to buy a TV, a sofa bed, nice rugs, electric fan, throw pillows, mini ref, DVD player, that pretty mosquito net like Faye’s, picture frames, scented candles, mini table, vanity table, closet, shoe rack, bag rack and a microwave. Those are pretty expensive. Then, I always have to eat outside coz I can’t cook even to save my life. I would have to start buying groceries. I have to start paying for electricity and water. Yeah, pretty expensive. Thinking ahead, I wouldn’t be able to afford to buy clothes whenever I want to. Imagine, no maid to fix my room, no more extra money for gimiks, movies and other fun stuff. With all these, I believe emotionally I’m ready to be independent but my wallet prevents me in doing so hehehe.


6.) I wish people would feel what they say and say what they feel. Especially in love, it would make things a lot less complicated. For example, if you love somebody, just say it! So what if she’s rich and you’re not, or he’s a god but you’re just average or, you think she wouldn’t give you the time of the day or you guys are always busy? In some other cases, if you don’t feel anything towards a person, never do or say things that would make that person feel otherwise. Do not be selfish. Think about what the other person would feel. Never use a person for your own benefit. Do not take advantage of their love for you. People like this do not deserve their share of breathing air in this planet.


7.) I wish they’d relocate Divisoria and the 168 mall nearer to Makati. Or, construct a flyover from Makati to Divisoria where only shoppers could pass to prevent them being stuck in horrible traffic on their way there.


8.) I wish to have a centralized commuting system at least for Metro Manila. Air conditioned buses and jeepneys would arrive only at certain pick up points (called BUS OR JEEPNEY STATIONS) at certain periods of time. I tell you, less traffic, less hassle and less pressure for commuters would come out of this.


9.) I wish I would not love and hate one person at the same time.


10.) I wish for my perfect love story.


11.) I wish Havaianas would go 50% off and would take me to wherever they stock all their flip flops so that I could shop ahead of all other people. Heaven!!!


12.) I wish Michael Scoffield of Prison Break to come to life and fall in love with me. Have you guys seen Prison Break? My God! If yes, then you have seen my dream guy. He has it all. Kalbo, beautiful and intense eyes, perfect nose, luscious mouth, nice set of teeth, smart, intelligent and gorgeous-but-I-don’t-know-it aura. I promise if that happens, I’ll donate to charity, be a saint, make my own bed or if required, stop buying Havaianas!


13.) I wish I could keep all of my close friends forever. I have a lot of friends. Check my Friendster, I’ve got 700++ of them. But what they do not know, my real friends are only a handful. Only they have been with me through all my ups and downs. They have seen me in my euphoric days and they were with me through those depressing times. They have accepted and loved me for who I truly am, issues and everything. Yeah, I have lost some very close friends too. Some who I have placed in the pedestal but along the way, we fell out. Maybe because our friendship didn’t survive the lack of time for each other, unresolved issues or we never really got to accept the real us in the first place. I just always think that maybe that’s how we were supposed to be. Some friends who I would like to mention here are: Peachy (my bestfriend), Vivian, Abby Lim, my Moonwalk childhood friends (Janice, Jay, Joshua, Niggs and Alvin), Erwin, Boyet, Marianne, Jimmy, Mabel, Ai and Xerxes.


14.) I wish for contentment, good health and long life to my family and loved ones.


15.) I wish for contentment for myself too.